‘Blue Hour Thoughts’
I’ve had the same experience for as long as I can remember: a couple of hours after falling asleep, I wake up between 2 and 3 a.m., and my mind refuses to stay quiet. Sometimes I fall back asleep quickly, sometimes I don’t—but the hardest part isn’t the insomnia, it’s the thoughts that come with those blue hours of the night.
There’s something about that time that makes fears feel louder, memories feel heavier, and possibilities feel more fragile. It’s like every shadow in my mind wakes up before I do, and it becomes very hard to find the golden thoughts, the soothing thoughts, the ones that remind me everything is actually okay. Those early-night thoughts take over like a tide, and I’ve had them my entire life.
Blue Hour Thoughts is a painting of that emotional landscape. The layers, the movement, the color shifts—none of it is chaos for the sake of chaos. It’s the inner monologue that comes alive when the world goes silent. It’s the sensation of trying to breathe through fear, trying to stay anchored when your thoughts feel like waves crashing in the dark. It’s what it feels like to be awake inside your own mind before the morning light has a chance to reset you.